Coping with post-marathon depression

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coping, depression, goals, marathon, post marathon, purple crowned fairy wren, running

Okay, so here is a thing I was not expecting.  After I finished the marathon on Sunday, I had a brief flush of pride and a feeling of accomplishment…and then a complete let-down.  I started thinking things like, “Well, my time was really not that good.” and “It’s really not something to be proud of.” and I didn’t end up telling anyone that I had just run a marathon.

After all, none of my friends or family knew I was training in the first place.  So it was easy to come into work and smile and chat and pretend like nothing unusual had happened that weekend.

I tried to go for a run the day after and found that my legs were weak and useless, though I felt fine riding my bike and swimming.

And bad thoughts started flooding back in.  I lost whatever confidence I had gained from being a “marathon runner”.

So this morning, disappointed in a slow swim time, I googled “post-marathon depression” and found out that it is actually a thing!  Huh, guess I’m not alone.  Knowing that helps, so here’s my plan for coping and maybe it will find someone going through something similar.

1.  Have another goal!  Part of the depression comes from the absence of a target or objective.  I’m a very goal-oriented person, after all, and I’ve been training for this marathon for 6 months.  So…it’s triathlon season!  I’m going to aim for a PR in a sprint tri in early July.

2.  Ease back into running.  My body is not as recovered as I would like.  This is going to be a week of long walks, bike rides, and swimming, with much less emphasis on running.

3.  Treat myself to my most beautiful hikes, rides, and open water swims.  I’ve been so focused on running that it will be good to remember why I love the other sports!

4.  Don’t push too hard.  I have been pushing times and distances for a long time and I think this is a good time to relax for a little while before building again.

5.  Confess my marathon to people who I know will be supportive and proud of me,  regardless of my time.  (I’m still working on this one, haha!)

6.  Other hobbies!  It’s okay to spend a little time on my other hobbies too…like writing on this blog, baking elaborate Dr. Who cakes, and drawing birds…

Purple-crowned fairy wren

Owls

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baby owl, Birds, black and white, cute, drawings, Friday, owls

Just an owl mum and babe for a Friday

Lion and Fox

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Animals, art, blue fox, drawings, fox, foxes, lion, silly

Part of a new story I am working on.  Yes, it is about a lion and a fox.  A blue fox!!

Lion and fox

Silly blue fox

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Animals, blue fox, cartoon, drawings, fox, foxes, silly, unique

This guy keeps popping up.

Hehehehe

Seasons

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art, drawings, fox, nature, poster, seasons, spring, summer, winter

I drew this elaborate poster for a little competition in my town, but it didn’t win.  On the plus side, now I can share it here!  You can click on it to view it larger.  It is 18 x 24 inches.

 

Just trying to capture the four seasons in PA.

Shoebill drawing

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Africa, Animals, drawings, shoebills, swamps

Well, it’s Friday, so here’s a birthday card I drew for my adviser’s children.  They love African animals, so I drew a Zambian swamp with a shoebill (because I love shoebills), some hippos, and a couple of giraffes for good measure.

The Mind of the Raven, by Bernd Heinrich

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art, Bernd Heinrich, Birds, drawings, excerpts, nature, ravens, the mind of the raven

Bernd Heinrich is another one of my science crushes. I became a big fan of his after reading Bumblebee Economics (I know you are just SO surprised), but I recently finished reading another of his books, this time on ravens.  It was loaned to me by a friend who adores ravens, and for her birthday I was inspired to draw just that.  Anyway, I thought it would be fun to intersperse the stages of the drawing with quotes from Heinrich’s book.

(This is the first time I’ve done a drawing like this without inks, so let me know what you think!)

Base colours and initial sketch.

The older birds reminded me of my father.  He saw a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for the first time when he was fifty-five years old.  It may have amused him, but he would not eat one then, or ever.   He “knew” butter doesn’t come out of peanuts, unless it was very inferior butter, and that was that.

This time with a helper for support, I tried to set a proper field biologist example by traversing a succession of small valleys and hills, crashing through the underbrush.

I could see no practical point to his costly exertions to exclude Goliath from a bath, except maybe to show that he could do it.  There are people like that, but I was surprised to see ravens being so unreasonable.

Odin, the ruler of the Norse gods, also called “Hrafna-gwd” or Raven god, kept two wolves at his side and two ravens on his shoulders.  The wolves and the ravens accompanied him on the hunt and into battle.  Thus, ravens were for thousands of years associated with wolves, and with mind, men, and the gods.  From the wolf-raven associations came the northern name “Wolfram,” from Wolf-rhaben or “wolf-raven”, once a great warrior’s name.

Tada! Raven from just coloured pencils. Do you like it?

The youngs’ first bath of their lives, when they are days out of the nest, is a memorable sight.  They make the acquaintance of the water cautiously with their bill, dipping it in, splashing it back and forth.  They they walk in hesitatingly, perhaps dipping their whole head in and violently shaking it back and forth.  Increasingly more contact with the water is achieve as they gradually first lower their rear end down, followed by the front end.

Curglaff and other unused words

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buzzfeed, drawings, funny, humour, language, Monday blues, odd words, owls

Buzzfeed recently released a post about unusual words that have fallen out of usage, and it illustrated them all with owl photographs.

So, if you’re feeling grumpish because it is a Monday, if you feel jargogled by your work, if a beef-witted cockalorum of a coworker is brabbling and twattling away at you, visit this monsterful post: http://www.buzzfeed.com/lukelewis/27-delightful-obsolete-words-its-high-time-we-revived

Isn’t language amazing?

“The shock one feels upon plunging into cold water.”

Callipygian-ly yours,

SOMF

If I were a moose, by Fred Small (and another blue fox)

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blue fox, drawings, fox, Fred Small, If I were a moose, nature, nature poetry, on being different

I drew this for a friend’s birthday, but I never gave it to him because I couldn’t decide if it was good enough. But I found this poem today, and I thought it suited the fox, and vice versa, so here they are together.

If I were a moose
alternative title…
a song with the subjunctive

If I were a moose and you were a cow
Would you love me anyhow?
Would you introduce me to your folks
Would you tell your friends “No moose jokes!”
If I were a moose and you were a cow.

Would you invite me to your club
And risk a cruel bovine snub
Would you lead me down the receiving line
And boldly boast “This moose is mine!”

Would your parents watch us graze
Shake their heads, “It’s just a phase”
Or would they thank the stars above
Their precious heifer’s found her love?

Would your grandparents change their will?
They’d really expected a Holstein bull
“For this we toiled before the plow –
You bring home someone who’s not even a cow.

There’s lot’s of proper stock around
Like that nice young Guernsey at Farmer Brown’s
Or that last one we ridiculed and cursed
On second thought you could do worse.

But if you think this thing will last
Could he learn to moo and eat our grass
Shed his antlers in the dirt
Could you persuade him to convert?”

If our anatomies did not quite fit
Would you make the best of it
Would you nuzzle up so near
And hum sweet cow tunes in my ear?

Or would you sadly break it off
When all the hillside sneered and scoffed
“You know those moose are all the same
They’re lazy, they’re stupid, they come from Maine.”

It’s true things slip a moose’s mind
That cows remember all the time
Bulbous nose and knobby knees
A coat that harbors ticks and fleas

But a moose can be a handy thing
When hungry wolves come visiting
In icy gust of winter storm
Our fur is deep and dry and warm.

And someday should your milk run dry
And farmer stare with baleful eye
In dead of night I’d slip your noose
And lead you home to the land of moose
If I were a moose and you were a cow.

If hunters came to do me harm
Would you hide me in the barn
Would all the herd come on the run
And glare until they dropped their guns?

Might you permit a goodnight kiss
Could you learn to love wet moose lips?
If I were a moose and you were a cow
If you were a cow and I were a moose

- Fred Small

Reasons to be happy, by Tony Hoagland (and a kitten by me)

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contentment, cute, drawing, kitten, nature, nature poetry, reasons to be happy, tony hoagland

Sleepy kitten doodle for a Thursday

Reasons to Be Happy

Some birds are people-watchers.
The worms can hear us walking over them.
The loaves and fishes multiplied the Christians.

We were wrong about so many things.
We thought the world was mute,
or just disinterested, or dead.

Yet the sunrise liked being looked at
by sleepy cabdrivers. The billboard was unashamed
of its live nude 24-hour girls.

The night-wind rustled
through the tops of cedar trees
standing all around a certain house

where worried people
lay in bed and listened.
What were the names

of those old Greek gods?
And where did they go?
Atlas—that’s the one

who spent a long time
holding up
what did not belong to him.

- TONY HOAGLAND

Some days you are the dragon, some days the frog

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academia, cute frog, desert rain frog, drawings, frustration, grad school, homestarrunner, silly

There is a faculty member who is a coauthor on one of my manuscripts.  He is the source of endless frustration for me because, as a coauthor, he must read and approve of the manuscript before it is submitted for publication.  Yet he never responds to emails, is rarely in his office, and does not carry a cell phone.  Getting a hold of him for this approval is an endlessly frustrating and exhausting process.

So you can imagine my joy when I managed to force him to set up a meeting with me.  The meeting was scheduled for this morning, at 10 am.  At 10:30, I was still standing outside his dark office, banging my head against the wall.

He didn’t show up, he didn’t answer his phone, and he didn’t respond to my email asking if I’d been mistaken about the day/time/place (I wasn’t).

As a graduate student, there is very little I can do to protest.  I want to be like Trogdor (which is a fictional dragon invented by the online comic, homestarrunner.com, as any child of the 90′s will know).

Burninating the countryside…listen, if you really want to understand this analogy, you have to go here and watch the (extremely silly) video.

But I am much more like this little desert rain frog, full of hot air.

Oh well.

“Fear my fury!” (?)

Sugar Gliders are adorable

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Animals, black and white, cute, drawings, just for fun, sugar gliders, weather

I’ve been commuting to and from work via bicycle for 5 years now.  Through sleet and rain and bitter cold or sweltering heat I have hopped on my bike, tightened my backpack straps, and pedaled mindlessly into work.

On Tuesday, we had terrible weather here.  There was a wintry mix of ice pellets, sleet, and freezing rain (the distinctions between which I am not entirely clear) and it was not the best riding weather.  I check the weather radar obsessively and this is what it looked like at around 7 pm when I was looking to go home for dinner.

The pink is “ice pellets” I think, while the blue is snow and the green is sleet.

“Hm,” I thought, “Well, maybe I’ll hang out in the office until there is a gap in the storm.”

Yeah, well that didn’t happen (I eventually biked home (cautiously) in a few centimeters of icy slush while being pelted with tiny hail), but while I was hanging out, this did!

I drew these sugar gliders for my blogger friend over at Peace With My Life (her blog is super awesome, btw, so you should check it out!).  Who knew that sugar gliders could be so cute!?

I like drawing animals on request, and black and white drawings take me very little time, so let me know if there is anything I can apply my (admittedly limited) artistic skills to. 

The Other Colouring Book

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Animals, art, black and white, colouring book, crafts, drawings, fun, kids

I smashed the remaining groups of animals into my last colouring book, which just goes to show what a mammal bias I have.  (I didn’t even include all my fox drawings in that first one!)  So this book includes mostly arthropods (mostly insects), followed by some fish, some reptiles, and an amphibian.  (How sad, I should draw more frogs!)

You can access the mammal colouring book and the bird colouring book at the links in this sentence (whoa, meta!).

You can download the pdf for free here (it is 16 pages of drawings): Other Colouring Book

And to whet your appetite for black and white line drawings, here are some sample pages.

Bird Colouring Book (x2)

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Animals, Birds, black and white, colouring book, crafts, drawings, fun, kids

Well, I was putting together the bird colouring book (see yesterday’s mammal colouring book), only I realized that most of the time I colour my bird drawings!  This makes them less good for a colouring book.  Nonetheless, I managed to scrape together a few, so here they are.   Besides, I don’t feel so bad, because if you want more bird pages, you can always go see the Backyard Bird Primer!

This book is shorter than the mammal one for the reason listed above.  I tried to make some black and white bitmaps from the coloured drawings but they mostly don’t turn out so well.  Some of the sort of weird looking birds at the end are the result of that effort!

Here’s the book (free pdf download): Bird Colouring Book

And here are some samples to entice you!

Colouring Book of Mammals

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Animals, colouring book, crafts, drawings, kids, mammals

Some blogger friends suggested that I should make a big colouring book of all my black and white drawings for kids.  I said I’d be happy to!  But it looks like I will have to divide it into more than one category, because I have so many drawings.

Here’s the first colouring book, just a collation of some of my simple line drawings of mammals.  The pdf is free for download:  Mammals Colouring Book.  If you don’t want to click there, just leave a comment or send me an email and I will send it as an email attachment.

The whole thing is forty pages, but here are some sample pages to pique your curiosity.

Simple insect and flower line drawings

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black and white drawings, drawings, flowers, insects, line drawings, nature

I made these simple line drawings for a figure I am preparing for a manuscript. These probably took me 10 minutes altogether. They are simple and generic (so not really artwork per se), but I thought someone else might have use of them for a similar purpose, so I’ve made them available as jpegs here.

Generic butterfly line drawing

Generic honeybee line drawing

Generic syrphid line drawing

Generic beetle line drawing

Black eyed susan line drawing

Silene line drawing

Thistle

 

Generic daisy fleabane

Insect Pests of the NE US (Full Book)

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drawings, field guides, forest pests, insects, pest guide, trees

I’ve posted about each of these species individually over the past couple of weeks.  The full book is available for download as a pdf here:  ForestPestsoftheNEUS.

These are representatives of 13 of the insect families listed in the “high impact” category from the Aukemaetal_2010 economic impact assessment of North American forest pests.  There remain several families that I did not cover (listed at the bottom of this post).

All of the drawings are here and you can click on them to link to their detail page.

And tomorrow I can talk about something other than insects, whew!

Beetle Families

Buprestidae: The Emerald Ash Borer

Curculionidae: The Ambrosia Beetle

Chrysomelidae: The Elm Leaf Beetle

Cerambycidae: The Asian Long-horned Beetle

Scarabaeidae: The Japanese Beetle

Wasp Families (Symphyta)

Diprionidae: The European Pine Sawfly

Tenthredinidae: The Mountain-Ash Sawfly

Siricidae: The Old World Wood Wasp

Moth Families

Lymantriidae: The Gypsy Moth

Tortricidae: The Pine Shoot Moth

High impact moth families not shown: Coleophoridae, Gelechiidae, Geometridae, and Plutellidae

Bug Families

Adelgidae: The Woolly Adelgid

Diaspididae: The California Red Scale

High impact bug families not shown: Aphididae, Asterolecaniidae, Coccidae, Eriococcidae, Margarodidae, Pseudococcidae, and Psyllidae

Thrips Families

Thripidae: The Pear Thrips

One other family not represented was in the fly order (Diptera): Cecidomyiidae

The Old World Wood Wasp

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drawings, ecology, forest pests, Giant Ichneumon, horntails, insects, nature, Old World Wood Wasp

NB: This is the last of my forest pests series. I’ll be posting the full pdf tomorrow. Thanks for reading!

The Old World Wood Wasp (Sirex noctilio) (which I have conveniently abbreviated OWWW), is yet another of those Symphytans that are causing so much trouble.  Like its cousins, it is sexually dimorphic.  And like the European Pine Sawfly, it prefers pine trees for its hosts.  However, unlike its cousins the European Pine Sawfly and the Mountain Ash Sawfly, the larvae of this species do not chew on leaves but on wood.

The adult females of the horntails, as this group of Sawflies is known, are able to drill into wood with a specialized ovipositor to lay their eggs.  The larvae are unable to directly digest wood, so they have a symbiotic relationship with a white rot fungus, similar to the Ambrosia Beetles.

The larvae leave a tunnel in the wood as the burrow around, thus compromising the integrity.  The fungus also plays a role in the ultimate downfall of the tree; as it spreads, the tree basically rots from the inside.

The wasp has many natural enemies, but one of the coolest (in my humble opinion) is the Giant Ichneumon (Rhyssa persuasoria).

The Giant Ichneumon lays its eggs on the eggs of the wood wasp. Courtesy of Wikipedia.org

The Mountain Ash Sawfly

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drawings, ecology, forest pests, insects, Mountain Ash Sawfly, nature, Pristiphora geniculata, Sorbus

The Mountain Ash Sawfly is another example of a pesky Symphytan, one of the primitive wasps in the order Hymenoptera.  Similar to the European Pine Sawfly, this species specializes on one genus of trees; in this case, the genus of Mountain Ashes (Sorbus).  Again, it is the larvae that do the damage.  They are able to completely defoliate a tree, often stripping the leaves down to the midribs.

The adults are also sexually dimorphic.  Predictably, the females are larger and they have a bright yellow abdomen.  The smaller males have noticeably longer antennae (for finding mates).

In my opinion, the most interesting thing about this pest is the gregarious, lime green larvae, which line up along the edges of leaves as they feed, all in the characteristic S-shape.  Evilly, they say, “Ssssssss…”  Cute!

The Mountain Ashes are not of major economic importance, so less effort is put into the control of this pest.

Pear Thrips

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Acer saccharum, drawings, ecology, forest pests, insects, nature, Pear Thrips, Thysanoptera

Thrips, or insects of the order Thysanoptera, are tiny herbivores.  They have rasping mouthparts which cause leaf tatter in many species.  The Pear Thrips (Taeniothrips inconsequens) in particular attacks hardwood trees.  It is mainly considered a threat only to the Sugar Maple (Acer saccharum).

Other species of thrips have been implicated in pollination services, for example in Australian Cycads, on islands, and in the tropics.  Their efficacy in this case is nonintuitive, as they are primarily pollen predators, but it highlights the continuum from antagonist to mutualistic interactions that occurs in nature.

Although damage from this pest is usually light (hence the Latin name inconsequens), in some years it can be quite significant.  The trouble with controlling them is that they often establish themselves in young buds before the trees leaf out.  Such young tissue is highly susceptible to the damage the thrips can cause.

NB: The word “thrips” applies both singularly (to one “thrips”) and also in the plural (to many “thrips”).  Just another weird thing about these guys.